i have to much anger inside me. like, it’s astounding. i know i bitch a lot, specifically about my home life. but seriously right now, i don’t even know what to do with myself. i had the worst day. my mom is so damn fake, she worries about herself and how people see her. what the fuck, ain’t nobody studyin’ you. so let me start off with this morning. it wasn’t that bad, yet. then she starts bitchin about every little thing, like my room. and then the floor and the dog. you’re never home, so don’t even go there. i did my best to ignore her and blow it off. hoped to have a good day. hah, wrong. the more i kept to myself and put up with listening to her shit, the more i just wanted to cuss the bitch out. the worst thing she does is put words in my mouth. we went to a baptism today, and when we get to the church she already pissed me off by claiming i said something i didn’t. but she thinks she’s HBIC and everything she says is right. that’s when i was done. got up and went in the car, like just straight chilled in there until everything was over. jk, i cried. bawled, i can only out up with so much. & i know it may seem dramatic of me but it’s just that i don’t like feeling so angry, i’m not that person.. but lately just so much has been built up inside. it’s like no one cares what i have to say. when she saw me cry, she laughed. she said ‘you look so funny’ and asked why i was crying. when i told her, she giggled and mocked and acted like she did nothing wrong. i just want to go to bed and forget about it all. now my aunts are over. so my mom used my crying as a comedy and proposed the situation as me looking like a dumbass. ofcourse to make her look good. i’m sorry for all this, i just had to let it out.